Monday, October 24th, 2005
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4:08 pm - yay
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I found my Halloween costume!!!
I just hope it gets here in time :(
current mood:  happy
current music: tv
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Sunday, October 9th, 2005
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2:18 pm - some days you gotta dance
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Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Made out with someone of the opposite sex.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Lost your virginity.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped classes.
Got in trouble for something you didn't do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the "Harry Potter" movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yardsale.
Had a lemonde stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to seaworld.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn't have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did "spirit day" at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren't home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
Done surveys like this to pass the time.
current mood:  sick
current music: tv
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Friday, October 7th, 2005
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1:43 am
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So I've noticed something...
On the shows like "Room Raiders", the girls go through the rooms and are thinking to themselves "well, because of this we won't get along in the long run so I should pick someone else", whereas the guys think "alright well these panties are hotter than hers, so I'll go with her and hope she puts out tonight".
I hate the male gender.
It's official.
current mood:  pissed off
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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1:35 pm - letters home
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I'm sorry I'm fucking stupid and ruin everything you want to do.
I'll just stay completely away from you for good like you want and you can be happy with whoever.
Have everyone there you want. I won't be there but it doesn't matter to anyone else, so don't let it matter to you.
I don't want to be in your way anymore. I'm sorry I screw eveything up.
current mood:  crushed
current music: Stolen Away
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3:09 am - word up
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10 FAVORITES
Favorite Color: coral
Favorite Food: pasta
Favorite Band: Dave Matthews Band
Favorite Song: Stolen Away on 55th & 3rd
Favorite Movie: The Notebook
Favorite Sport: softball
Favorite Season: Fall
Favorite Day Of the Week: Thursday & Sunday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Ben & Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie
Favorite Time of Day: 9am and 1am
9 CURRENTS
Current Mood: sleepy and loved
Current Taste: kisses
Current Clothes: boy shorts and a t-shirt
Current Toenail Color: big night out (red)
Current Time: 3:41am
Current Surroundings: my bed
Current Thoughts: love, xfiles, sleep
8 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Samantha Ward
First Kiss: Tim Stowell
First Screen Name: RBFkimba311
First Pet: Blackie, a cat
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: my cousin's friend, Rock (yes that's his name)
First Music: country
First Car: black 1991 Isuzu pickup
7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: uh years ago
Last Drink: water
Last Car Ride: just now from Matt's
Last Kiss: about half an hour ago
Last Time you said I love you and meant it: a few days ago
Last CD played: mix I made for Matt
6 HAVE YOU EVER
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends?: yes
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes
Have You Ever gone Sky diving: nope
Have You Ever gone Skinny Dipping: yep
Have You Ever Been on TV: yea
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: no
5 THINGS
1 Thing You're Wearing: boy shorts
1 Thing You've Done Today: late night adventures
1 Thing You Can Hear Right Now: TV
1 Thing You Can't Live Without: food
1 Thing You Do When You're Bored: sing obnoxiously and make people join in
4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY
1. the mall
2. Matt's house
3. thrifting
4. walmart
3 PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE
1. my mama
2. Matt
3. everyone else
2 CHOICES
1. black or white: black
2. hot or cold: cold
1 THING YOU WANT TO DO
1. get it together
current mood:  loved
current music: Dave
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Monday, October 3rd, 2005
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1:36 am - I think I've already done one before, but you still need to do it
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I ________ Kim.
Kim is _______.
If I were alone in a room with Kim I would ______.
I think Kim should _______.
Kim needs _______.
I want to ______ Kim.
Kim reminds me of _______.
Without Kim I would _______.
The worst thing about Kim is _______.
The best thing about Kim is __________.
I am _______ without Kim.
I am Kim's ________.
Kim is my ________.
current mood:  tired
current music: Sparks
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
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4:47 pm - copy & paste
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If you read this, even if we do not speak often, comment with one memory of me. It can be anything you want, good or bad. Just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal to see what other people remember about you.
current mood: tired
current music: No Doubt
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12:40 am - did I drive you away? I know what you'll say
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Yesterday I bought two betta fish. Their names are Ralph and Stanley. Ralph is solid red. Stanley is white with a purple face and fins.
I am lonely because Matt went to the show in Orlando. I kind of wanted to go, but I felt a little intrusive so I just didn't say anything. Hopefully tonight I can finish my latest painting since I have the free time.
I've been craving affection. Not necessarily sex, but someone to kiss and hold whenever I want. To cuddle or makeout with no pressure of anything else. To be caressed with no intentions to go further. I'm missing that aspect of things.
Hopefully hang out with Angel for a little bit tomorrow.
current mood: lonely
current music: tv
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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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11:39 pm - this is what makes my day...
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10:10 pm - with friends like that, who needs enemies?
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Halloween is so soon!
I need a costume.
Don't know what I'm going to be.
Octoberfest is a week and a half away.
I love the fall.
current mood: excited
current music: tv
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Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
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5:51 pm - I just wanna
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I don't like not knowing things. I know it's not important for me to know, but I still don't like it.
I hate hearing about everything you're going to do, from other people.
It feels like there's secrets and seclusion, and that's an all too familiar feeling that I can't stand.
current mood:  poopy
current music: Coldplay
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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8:49 pm - piece by piece
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Isn't it pathetic when people base whether they will like you are not, on the opinions of other people?
Fucking grow up and be your own person.
Make your own decisions, you don't need to be babied.
That's my only advice to anyone.
current mood:  you're idiots
current music: California
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2:40 am - don't make me fall for you
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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2:41 am - all them diamonds ain't real
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So than plan was to go get my tattoo tonight but like an idiot, I told my mom beforehand and she wigged out. So to spare her a nervous breakdown, I didn't get it. I did mess with her though because I got Matt to draw a ridiculous one on my shoulder. She was ready to cry and then I told her it was just marker. Greatest moment of my life.
I'll get it soon enough.
Tomorrow, even better plans are going to be put into action. Yes.
current mood: anxious
current music: tv
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Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
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4:44 am - I update too much
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I've got a new journal:
bend_my_love
I added some of you already. If I haven't added you, just add me. I'll add you back.
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12:47 am - dear Kim,
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Stop reading old journal entries, particularly those that do not belong to you. Stop trying to figure out what you missed. Stop looking for it because it only hurts you. It does not matter now. You can't change it and honestly, you probably couldn't have then. You already know that. It's done. It won't happen again. You're doing just fine.
Don't worry about being lonely, because he's out there and he'll come to you. I have a feeling he'll be here soon.
You are home and he will find you. Be patient.
Don't have regrets and don't think about things. That's what kills you.
Someone loves you. Even if they're not saying it.
Tomorrow is a new day and you never know what could happen.
current mood: uncomfortable
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Monday, September 12th, 2005
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11:46 pm
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I know it's pathetic, but I'm going crazy since myspace isn't working.
I'm so bored.
Walmart is calling my name.
I want someone to go on late night adventures with me.
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10:29 pm - did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
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Today was my uncle's funeral. It was harder to get through than I thought it would be and much easier than I thought, all at the same time.
I don't work until Wednesday. That's nice.
Tomorrow night is the Dave Matthews Band storytellers. Who's watching it with me?
I have a surprise for all of you after tomorrow night.
I'm cutting my hair Thursday. Bye bye long hair. It's gonna be short.
Had a date with my bff tonight. It was pretty sweet...except she didn't pay and she didn't put out. Not like my usual dates.
I hope to be out of my mind tomorrow night.
current mood:  weird
current music: Coldplay
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1:14 am - is this a life sentence that I'm serving?
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Don't fucking say "I'll see you later", when really you hope to never see me again. That's why I slammed the door. It wasn't even that big of a fucking deal. Why don't you just let me think about it and let me be mad and not make me talk about it? Just let me cool off, alone. And don't ask what we're supposed to do now when you know it's nothing. We want different things. Just keep using me.
I am so sick of this. I just want someone to treat me right. No, nevermind. I want you to treat me right. In three years that still hasn't happened.
On another, and completely opposite note. James called me tonight. We talked for like half an hour. We might be room mates! When he gets here we're going apartment shopping and hopefully things will work out.
current mood: I don't know
current music: Relient K
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Sunday, September 11th, 2005
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4:01 am - it's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
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I think I'm changing my mind about this place. I always said I'd never want to leave and I'd never want to live anywhere else. I think it's different now. I can't wait to experience somewhere else, even if I come back here to live. I really do love Florida and the south but I feel so sheltered and ignorant for not knowing anything else about the world.
But I hate the dumbass yankees that come here and then complain about everything. So go back up north. No one wants your asses here anyway. And that's all I've got for my confederate ramblings.
I've got a funny feeling about things. I want my plans to go through tomorrow. I just don't know what to expect.
So I'm developing a theory. Well, two really.
The first is about hook ups. Hooking up with the understanding that it's nothing more than that is fairly simple. You don't get attached. You don't let yourself fall. You find all the bad things about their personality and all the good things about their body. Plain and simple. But the catch is to keep them coming back (so to speak). You have to make sure that your shit is the best. I'm not saying be a freak, unless you're into that already. But make sure that there's something about you that will keep anyone coming back for more.
My second theory is about the reason for all the sexual activity in Florida. I blame it on the weather. Think about it. If it weren't so hot, people would wear more clothes. Because of the fact that people don't cover themselves up as much as other regions, they tend to keep in better shape and have better bodies. Now I'm not a very good mathematician but a hot body and not much covering it, is a lethal combination. We are surrounded by temptation everywhere we look in Florida. Particularly since we are nothing more than a beach town. There is just nothing else to do here. Give us some snow and we'll wear clothes and not want to take them off because it's so hot. Why do you think the population in Alaska is lower? Hello?! I know I'm not the only lunatic up at 4 in the morning contemplating such ridiculous things.
On another note, the "Dreamgirl" video plays all the time now.
I fucking love that.
The "Time of Your Life(Good Riddance)" video is on now.
I love this song.
It's perfect for how we all feel right now.
current mood: looney toon
current music: Green Day
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